错了，不能哭

决定了不改变

这... 会是对的选择吗？

偶...不喜欢做决定。

每次的决定都会让偶回不去。

偶还没长大...

偶不想长大...

偶只希望还是个小孩、还是个可以让老妈捧在怀里的婴孩。

不用烦恼、不用决定任何事...

就算错了，也没有人会责怪你。

就算错了，或许...

还有反悔的机会...

就好象爸爸妈妈会把那过去再从新让偶选择过...

所以都不会害怕...

心想“凡是都有爸爸妈妈。”

或许被骂醒后，哭过以后，

第二天又是全新的一天。

现在不同了...

长大了...

不能哭了...

决定了就不能反悔了...

也没有被反悔的余地。

只能躲在光线不足的暗角...

默默哭泣....

当初做错的决定。

偶要相信家人，

他们不会陷害至亲....

Exam is coming...
Die Die...

Sukee Sukee

又是一个不一样的惊喜...

西北北极

Busy busy busy....

偶啊...西北北极....

忙死整个月...

又病倒了...

病毒又侵袭偶了...

伤风感冒了...

最讨厌的...

鼻涕直流....

拼命打哈气...

靠~

天气啊天气...

够了...

又冷又热...

您要怎样嘛您？！

两个星期后，就是final exam了...
明天，就是Basic Compo. presentation le...

What a busy November...

这是什么11月？
超忙的...
忙得甚至一天只睡4小时....
早上起来眼睛是肿的、
黑眼圈变黑了、
皮肤又敏感出红疹...
靠！超惨的...


忙学业、忙打工、忙庆生、忙出席学校的节目...
忙！忙！忙！
赶巴士、赶时间、赶上课...
都快喘不过气来....
睡眠不足...
又开始发热气...
口又开始生泡泡了...
舌头也中了...
T-T

这3天可是要偶的命...
站的脚都快断了...
走得脚都快软掉了...
不过，也是可全新的体验...
因为好久好久...都没这么忙过了...
其实，也还蛮喜欢这样的生活...
至少不是吃喝玩睡得过一天...
也虽然不能窝在家里感受家的温暖...
虽然不能窝在家里看自己喜欢的《败犬女王》...
但是，至少忙碌得过一天...
那种心情是...
疲劳？兴奋？值得？生气？还是...?
初初是死命喊累...
觉得这种生活不是人过的...
到后来就觉得这一天总算没白过了...
至少偶没有白过了一天...
有干了点活...

Experiences

story 1: -a scary day-

I really scare of LIFT.
I scare of DARKNESS.
I scare the way I went to 2xBen's hostel.
Really really scare because she was not beside me..
Alone walked to her hostel at 8++pm...
Gosh!
Was really darken outside.
I was thinking how am i going to back to her hostel by myself...
Gosh!
ALONE!
In the darken road with no one on the road...
Heard a lot of scary stories that happened nearby there....
Damn shit....
Heart beat very fast....
Kept thinking about that....
Oh My God...
I was praying silently....
Nam-Mio-Horr-Ren-Geii-Giorr~
shhh~
really appeared an eldest guy!!!

haha!
he got a big muscle on his shoulder...
YEs! ...
thx god....
haha!
then i followed him to walk back to hostel...
walk silently behind him...
^^

Shit....
LIFT....
22 flr...
My god!
Damn high man...
I will dizzy when i took lift...
some more is 22 flr....
fainted =.=
In her hostel, only left out me.
hurried close the door...
huiyo....
then faster called my darling to talk to.
haha...
crapped a lot in the phone...
an hour... the longest talked time ever I've made...
lolx.... she some more made the joke to scare me....
T_T
really scared....


story 2: -late slept again-

2++am slept again...
crapped all over that time....
haha...
Panda eyes...
more darken T_T

story 3: -Elephant Century-

hmm...
visited to pahang worr...
go to see elephant worr....
excited?

yea... 1st of all, yes!
but... after i knew jie not going anymore...
mood dropped from 90% to 70%
then.... walked to college...
gathering tat time...
mood dropped down to 50%....
gosh!
shit! damn shit!
i thought got a lot of ppls were going....
at least 30 or 40 something...
but... unexpected,only 21 ppls...
=.=!!!
fine... ok...
nothing to say...
since i was there already...
go lolx....
but friend also no mood to go edi...
pek cek-ing...

Story 4: -A place that recalled back my memories-



i still remember this place....
this is the place where i been here before when i went to my NS camp...
Guys, still remember here?
Is a memorable place for me...
I realize i was there after i woke up from slept.
haha!
cuz to0 boring in the bus, and i get use to sleep in a bus.
Anyhow, this trip brought me back to this place....
really like a dream for me....
it recalled me many many things that happened along the days....

Lousy

Lousy speaker
Lousy voice
Lousy Idea
Lousy writing
some more?
Everything i done is L-O-U-S-Y!

-end-

Qi Bang at 2xBen's House

Feel very excited..
Haha...
Friday i stay at Ben Ben's house due to the music concert at night.
I was excited because... this week i really feel very dull of my life.
And some more moody all the ways i go...
Then i took that chance to feel a different.
=)
Lolx... was invited by Ben Ben actually..
Because of her friend took part in that.
So as a friend of her, i must support her also.
Haha...
But actually i go is because want to eat her cook.
Is a very good tried to stay her house for the 1st time.

Scare?
Curious?
Fun?
Excited?

She cooked dinner for me =P
after my class finished at 5.30pm, she came to "bring" me back her "house".
Kinda like a mummy went to college bring her daughter..
haha!
Along the way we walked back to "her condo", i feel very excited.
Don't know why.
Singing along the road while walking to her condo & college.
Maybe people seeing was thinking we are crazy, maybe?
=)
I'm not the 1st time went to her house, but is the 1st time stayed in her house.
=P
We thought we could spent our time until the next morning..
But we couldn't.
We enjoyed 3 pack of snacks until 3pm!
shit!
that time i was thinking...
"What the hell am i doing?
Gosh! sure become fat again...T_T
We crapped a lot and took a lot photo..
haha... editing~ editing~
Hanged up till... beh tahan..
then sleep lu....
Total sleeping time for that night only 4 hours.
T_T
haha... we both sharing our "cook" actually.
haha...
I made a breakfast for her in the next morning.
Is kinda delicious..=P
(i think?)

My good at cooking is...
( i think)

make a bread meal.
haha!!!

Bread is nice.! Delicious.!
Yummy....

Piggy wake up lolx... Ding dong~~~
She set my phone alarm at 9.20am...
=.=
But she asked me woke her up 10am...
10.10am...
stilll at bed....

Piak~~~ "Qi Bang" all the time at her house =P
Not the " Qi Bang" as we know, but is the "Qi Bang" she created.

Words to MUM

I'm sorry, Mum_

I not suppose to make you disappointed_

And i promise i won't do again_

Trust me!

out of my thought, she didn't get angry when she knew that i may played truant_
I_very_bad_
and_ i know_
I always make her sad, disappointed.
And now, i start feeling she is getting older and older.
Wrinkles grow all her face_
While she smile, I saw some sadness in her diamond eyes_
Telling me that she spent all her life on us_
Caring us_
never blame any words_
But I'm the one who always make her sad!
T_T
It makes me heart ache_
I hate myself !!!
Why do i so stupid to treat her so bad in the past?!!!
I'm foolish_
Clumsy girl_
I not suppose to be that.
I don't know why...
Recently_ only I realize all this_
Seems now only i growing up_
being mature in thinking_
I agree that I'm childish ever_
And now i swear to myself,
I won't make her sad again!
I love you, MUM!

垮了

什么都不知道了
什么都不想理了
偶很累
偶只知道偶真的很累
每天都要假装很开心
每天都要假装没事
偶真的扮得很累
上个星期两堂课miss掉了
却也miss掉了最重要的环节
test来了、drama也来了、assignment也来了
瓦靠！！！
统统都一起在一个时间出现
统统都在这个时间给偶出来
偶该怎么办？
偶真的要垮了
偶...真的是越来越坏
好学不学，学了个坏学生样
那天又犯错了
对不起！

奇怪

很奇怪的日子
很奇怪的时间

心里面就好像有东西闷着闷着
不知道是什么心情
这种有东西闷着闷着的心情
真的是吃不安，睡不下
不知道好像是犯了滔天大罪

又有种将面临生死离别的悲哀情感


偶很害怕。。。
怕什么？
不知道。
就是...
不安。
当偶的心情一直反反复复都是这样子的时候，
偶最想要的就是...
家人都在偶身边。

偶真的不知道怎么了
只知道好像有什么不好的事情就快发生。
这种心情...真的很难解释得说。
不安。
就是不安。

寒冷

今天的天气真的很冷

温度都只在于27℃

整个天气都好像在配合2012电影的上映

昏暗的天空

看不见任何阳光

感觉不到任何温暖

凉凉冰冰的冷风

一直都在偶身边徘徊

听老妈子说长命雨会下到19号，

那会是...真的吗？

偶希望偶的老爸会慎重的考虑

偶提出的见解。。。

不会不顾任何思考、不会不顾及偶人的感受。

偶希望那会是满意的答案。

骗子

我...

能掌控我的未来吗？

我的未来...

会是什么样子？

它会是我要的未来吗？

你们不要阻止我，好吗？

让我展翅高飞...

翱翔的飞...

在那自由的天空。

我不想我的未来就这样被封锁。

你们明白吗？

我的未来，我自己选择。

我不想错过了。

错的选择，一次就够。

我不要浪费时间，浪费金钱。

你们可以体谅我吗？

我要的不是现在我得到的，

因为我知道被欺骗的感觉。

都是因为有你们这些爱钱爱得如命的大白痴！

才会害得我们这些无辜的小毛头狠狠的把头给撞上你家大门！

就因为有你们这些白痴，

才会害得我们变得如此不愉快！

我不要！

我要杀了你！！！

我的未来，我要自己掌控。

我的未来，我要自己编写。

我的未来，我要自己来上演！

Skip Skip

Skip skip~~

skipped class again...

T_T

Wishes

Today quiz actually,

But i failed to go.

Gosh! Can't even speak in this morning.
I'm tired & I'm moody.

Lecturer wanted to see me tomorrow..
wuwu..
T_T
9 o'clock?
No no...
I don't think i can go also.
Shitty...

Today miss to celebrate my classmate birthday.
They decided to go Neway...
But got this stupid germ...

Anyhow, i wish her all the best in everything=)
Birthday Queen...


(so bad larhx you...
still call me and "sour" me up arhx...)

Sick & Tired

Izzit possible for me to get over it?

I'm sick and I'm really tired.

Confusing...

Thinking all the rubbish over and over again..

Can't stop my mind.

My future is important, dude!

You are cheated on me!

Gosh!

All over the night..

Insomia again....

Acne grows on face....
=(
Hate that!


Hope i get well soon.


(scare i'm kena H1n1)

Memorable Dreamz

给偶最珍贵的梦
给最疼惜偶的你们
大家都终止这场游戏
开始在生活中打拼
希望可以在此唤醒之前的快乐
=）

100%的好人？

在这个世界上没有一个100%的好人。
就算你觉得他在这方面的好，但是，一个“好人”还是有坏蛋的一面。

在这个世界上没有一个100%的坏人。
就算你觉得他在这方面的坏，但是，一个“坏人”还是有好人的一面。

曾经一位朋友说，爱说人家的，都是道德缺氧的人。
有些人就是认为“好人”一定是100%的“大好人”。
但是，最近发现...其实也不见得。

一个“好人”就不会说别人的坏话吗？
一个“好人”就像在戏剧里看到的“真人君子”吗？
一个“好人”能永远是... ...好人吗？

相反的... ....

一个“坏人”就会一直说别人的坏话吗？
一个“坏人”就像在戏剧里看到的“大坏蛋”吗？
一个“坏人”就永远是... ...坏人吗？

互给惊喜

11是超多人生日的月
以前同班的都有6个
加上classmate有2个
11月真的是生日月

昨天原本以为可以给一位朋友惊喜，
谁不知是她口爱的狗狗给回了偶最大的惊喜。
偶看啊！是互给吧？

朋友，有感觉意外惊喜么？

昨天，一整天都没出去，闷在家都没睡午觉。
忙的都是DIY礼物给朋友。
偶没有别人有钱，但是偶有的是满满真心。
但是，真心好像都没什么被看好。
反而，花大笔钱的才能感动他们内心的石头。

希望偶的手工能够感动你，
只需一瞬间，
不用太久。

屌

伪装

人都是虚伪的

偶可以酱说吗？

昨天看了个朋友的BLOG

突然有的想法...


当你用真心对一个人

不伪装自己的身份

你却意想不到

其实大家都在伪装自己

就像偶一直都说

好像马戏团的小丑一样

他被迫嬉皮笑脸逗观众

因为这是他的职业

面具的背后

或许他更本就不想笑

想说的

或许就连偶自己都很难解释明白

但是

至少偶知道伪装有时候也是一种保护



-完-

祸从口出

是嘴巴惹的祸

真是的

很多事情都是因为嘴巴惹的祸

昨天真的是很该死

早知道就不要说这么多话

招来不必要的麻烦


偶最怕就是和别人作sales

更何况是被那些sales招上门来

偶还真的是不懂要躲哪里好

荷包又没比别人“饱”

当然是有的跑就逃啦


现在...真是祸从口出

别人找偶帮他们做sales

wakao~!!!

偶晕咯！

真是后悔昨天夸大口说的“10千！”

今天手机就不停的响~

怕是找不到偶死不休

偶麦卡~

希望待会儿手机响的不是“他们”好了

偶可是拜佛祈祷~

祈祷别在祸从口出

偶可是怕得要死

怕别人和偶说这个好的那个好的

不是不相信

只是觉得很烦

偶是个懒人

只想头脑清静点

不想睡觉都还在动脑精

哌瑟~

product selling

Is damn tired this 2 days!
Feel angry at ADP department!
OMG!
Register for the 3rd sem have to take so long time...
It took me around 2hr...
busy than i get ready for selling product...
Hate it!
Make me get scolded by mum!
i already informed my sister...
MY SISTER again!
Damn her ****ing phone...
can throw away already...

---------------------------------------------------------------
Today~

haha...
is good the result we are selling those cosmetic and mask..
Even the Manager of this event also praise us=)

But some of them i mean customer... unexpectedly doubt of our product..
Lolx...
Is really M.A.C product!!!
We took it straight with the supplier of this product..
is made in Canada!
the model, the pattern we are selling is originated from Canada..
Different with M'sia...
But..
Doubtful..
full of doubtful..
the eyes looking at our product...
the voice... sounds at our product..
"is fake"
"imitate"
Gosh!
If you are know this product well, then you know whether it is the original or fake!
We are not FAKER!

To the guest of my blog...

I would like to introduce you guys to come to 1st flr of USJ Segi College,
which i am studying there right now..
And...
the important things is..
Hope you guys can support our product as well..
Cuz it is cheaper than you think it is...
The price is DAMN cheaper than the specialty stores..
We selling eye liner(liquid & pencil), eye brown, brush, blush, liquid powder, powder,
conceilor & mascara etc...

all this product only sell below RM40!!!!

*for more info pls contact me....
or you can leave a msg at my chat box...
=)

阿公80岁大寿

Ah Gong & Ah Ma~ 恩爱老夫妻=)

阿公80岁大寿

偶们也跟着享受

哈哈！

真是够意思...

其实，偶们算幸运咯！

阿公有5个男丁5个女儿...

而偶们就刚好和阿公阿嫲做同一桌

（偶妈是3姨又称鲨鱼）

还和那个黑黑4舅、舅母坐...

太棒了！

哈哈！

阿姨外号名单（外泄）：

大姨 - 大鱼

2姨 - 鳄鱼

3姨 - 鲨鱼（偶妈）

4姨 - 死鱼

尾（berr)姨 - 就尾鱼咯

其实，说真的偶们都好久好久都没这样聚在一起了

昨晚，因为阿公80大寿，才会有这样一个大好机会

拍了超级多的照片

连阿姨都说“有什么好拍的...背景都还不是一样...”

哈哈！

一样是一样...

拍照的对象不同啊！

哈！

想说的，以前都会说有表姐哥都好像没有...

那是因为彼此间的感情并不浓厚，也少于接触碰面...

但是，昨天真实了...

心中都还有彼此=）

偶家与阿公阿嫲~













Ah Gong mai kao la~

前功尽弃？不会吧？

瓦靠！是累的咯！
一起身...
偶的妈呀！
是痛的咯！
昨天打羽毛球去了...
很爽下...
一身全流汗的感觉...
流完汗后的感觉清醒多了...
因为好久好久...
都在怀疑自己都处于半睡醒状态...
昨天真的是...太爽了..

但是感觉有点白费心机...
难得有的运动，难得留这么多汗...
死肚子却开始饿...
偶还特地吃了才去运动的耶...
晚上更是觉得无可救药...
那个蕊儿竟然拿BBQ+鸭肉来...
偶麦卡...
不吃又不行...
好久没吃了+人家老母在...
总得给面子吧！
还拿了偶最爱的巧克力cupcake...
可惜，肚子真的装不下了...
吃了BBQ罪恶感超重的...
希望不会因此肥1kg吧！

My Beauty Diary=)

哇...今天是累得咯！
累到老毛病都复发...
PekCek 啊~
Haizz...
因为“试”后，没直接回家
跑到老姐家去...

今天management principle 考试,
没注意时间...
要9点才到College...
偶还是赶着的呢！
因为miss掉较早的那一趟bas
又被老妈念了~
swt...
（苦瓜脸即显=.=）
怎么知道来到10楼才发现10.30am才考啦！
所以叻...
又到Old Town耗时间去了...
最近很常去O.T..
东西也不怎么说很便宜...
就前天因为课堂突然被取消...
往O.T医肚子去...
就三块nugget型的“fish chips”
+
应该不到10条的“薯条”
+
偶最爱的“O.T浓厚巧克力”
就RM10.30!
那偶早知道就往McD去...
“薯条”都超过10条
吃得饱又才RM6++
哈！
今天考试就看过没记得
其实考题都不难
只好责怪自己的死脑筋转不快
没来得及背答案...
遗憾...

考完试...
就跑到PY 姐家去
做女人该做的事
做一个好奇初学者
玩以后再大些些会碰到的事
哈哈
玩得还蛮过瘾下
过后在姐家看“富贵门”
是好看的咯！
几衰下
偶家的不听话
开不了来看
也是和偶一样都是“死脑筋”
英文就英文
换一下都要和偶闹别扭
真头痛

Uncertain Feeling

终于拿到了

成绩在手了

其实... 今天心情都很矛盾

Case 1

心情：PekCek!
原因：原本延期4次了的Presentation,以为终于可以在今天呈现了。怎么知道!好死不死，到了
College才接到朋友的电话地说...“Class Cancel...”瓦靠!啊现在是怎样？本小姐到了才和偶说没-课!
他妈的说! 有没有搞错? 已经第4次被延期了，这次竟然被 一句没-课,让偶紧张了好几天的心情都白紧张了...而且，还要从新紧张过!偶麦卡! 偶看到偶present的时候，偶已经休克了...

Case 2

心情：PekCek 一点点+开心+高兴
原因：在等待电梯的当儿，偶遇上几个classmate，就聊了起来地说。聊着聊着竟然告诉偶今天拿成绩! “完了!” 心想...“怎么一波为平一波又起？” “偶要紧张到什么时候才会停下？” 偶们的部门永远都比人家慢...明明就是同一堂课，明明就同一天考试。但偏偏，偶们就是迟过人家那成绩...UOS都拿了，就剩偶们...拖到今天...心情扑通扑通的跳，跟着电梯从G楼算起...心里开始数起

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乌龟王八蛋的! 那个人去吃了，又要等多一个小时... 偶真得是...没话可说!到Old Town耗掉这一小时...

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成绩终于在手!
是开心的，是理想的...
出乎预料...
MPW2133Malaysian Studies
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MPW2163 Pengajian Moral
偶拿到2科A.
但是是A-(3.7 +3.7 )
不过偶也很开心了...
hehe!!!

Ha!
超高兴!
一直怕到现在..
终于可以松一口气..
HoOoo~
=)

Make your CHOICE

"Hello YOU , I want to play a game.
Right now, YOU are feeling helpless.
This is the same helplessness YOU bestowed onto others.
But now, it's unto YOU.
Some would call this karma, I call it justice... ..."

Make your choice.

OooHoo... is damn nice man!!!

I damn like this movie man!

Is... really disgusted + violence!

So i don't wanna mention much about this.

Know this movie?

I guess some of you know.

I giving you all a clue in this post.

GUESS or NOT?

Make your choice.

If you're scared of Final Destination

then

please don't ever try this movie!

Is not that stupid funny violence's movie as you think!

Is a game.

Is kinda...

DISGUSTING!

You are exactly watch how a man or a woman die in...

With any second any pain he /she feels you got to feel it too.

This is an advice i can make.

The VI episode of this movie is going to show on 22 OCT 2009.

WATCH or NOT?

Make your choice.